1/13/14

"You lost me at dragon slayer... that's the first thing I said... yeah, I know."

 

1/12/14

"I know we've done this so many times before, but this time it feels different."

1/11/14

"I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to lie."

1/10/14

"How was your day? ... It was a very weird mix of not that bad, and complete shit."

1/9/14

"I think you like bubbles Katie... I think I don't."

1/8/14

"We're the Legend Squad now... We are? ... Yeah!"

1/7/14

"Well, shit."

1/6/14

"You've gotta just walk away sometimes, and that's okay."

1/5/14

"There's something to be said about the Arts district in Philly. It feels almost like home to me."

1/4/14

"It's family bonding! ... no."

1/3/14

"I'm not going to lie to you. Today, you were acting like an entitled asshole."

1/2/14

"I've decided I'm not going to school tomorrow even if we don't have a snow day... why? ... I want to prove a point, and sleep."

 

1/1/14

"If this is to end in fire, then we will all burn together!"

So, I'm off to a terrible start. I have some photos from the past two days, sadly, no video though. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

A Spectacular Nothing

Just another little ficlet to hang on to while you wait for January.

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A Spectacular Nothing

            His first attempt was brash, and rather unplanned: a leap of faith, figuratively and yet quite literally. It ended just as quickly as it had started and with just as much –or as little– to do. Finding himself only slightly ruffled, he collected himself, shook off the minor damage, and retreated quickly. His stance at the base of the gate was notably less regal this time. Regardless of the appearance, his spirits suffered no immediate damage that might dissuade him.

            His second and third attempts were nearly as frivolous as the first, yielding no preferred variant in result. His efforts on both such occasions were equally as unplanned. His retreat was less eager, his attitude about the whole situation much less enthusiastic. However, his steadfast determination solidified his decision not to relent. Taking a moment in pensive silence, he furrowed his brow and set his mind to work. His thoughts grew more frenzied and desperate as the moments ticked by. Composing himself, he considered the feat a few moments more. And, in his opinion, with a decidedly more planned approach, he attempted twice more – each to a spectacular failure, and each seeming no less like the first in either approach or consequence. In an absurd flourish of flailing limbs and torn hopes and some minor battle scars to prove it all, he slunk back, yet again, to the base of the gate.

            This time, he was determined. An air of extreme concentration overtook him and affected him in the most inane manner; once again, brow furrowed, jaw clenched, eyes scrunched, intently focused on the target. It was a rather peculiar and ridiculous expression to be sure. One certainly worthy of eliciting a chuckle, but then again, the whole ordeal was that of a terrific spectacle. Almost assured, anyone who would find his facial expression in the least bit humorous would let out a resounding laugh upon one look at the entire act.

            In one last desperate leap, composed of all the courage and strength his small form could possibly muster, he lunged. In the seconds it took, to him, the entire world seemed to stand motionless in suspense of the outcome. His lunge embodied every childlike ambition and blind hope he saddled it with. It was as if his entire future rested on this final attempt. It was his moment, and no matter how fleeting, he would live it with as much gusto as he possibly could. His moment, though, promptly ended with as much to do as with which it began. And to be entirely frank, there was hardly any to do at all. He had made it, though. His eyes gleamed bright with jubilation and expectant of praise. But no one was there to give it the pomp and circumstance he knew it deserved. He didn’t much care; his own little victory was enough. So, with a light, elated step he made his way over to the armchair. And –dug up from the new found confidence he’d acquired– he leapt one final time, and settled himself comfortably on a throw pillow.

            In an hour everyone would be home. He would hope they would realize his accomplishment. And he would be disappointed when he would only receive a decent, but well deserved, scolding according to the usual tune of “Stay off the chairs. Don’t go in there!” and whatever else he has heard a thousand times. And he’d be ushered back onto the other side of the gate, his fantastic efforts simply infinitesimal. In that fraction of a moment his triumph would become nothing, just that, a spectacular nothing. 

            “Would someone please feed the cat?” he would hear, and, as if on cue, he would bolt back into action. After all, there was food to be had.

Hiya, Guys!

Hiya, Guys! Long time no see, I know, I'm a terrible person, but here's the deal. I am going to start over, sort of. By that I mean that I'm going to keep all my old videos and musings, and they'll all be included in the final product. But, I am going to start doing videos and musings again on January 1st so that I have a more concrete important date to work with, and hopefully, I'll be able to stick with it.

7/30/13

7/30/13

"I made a promise to myself that I'd document the hard days too, I never thought I would have to; I never though that it would ever get that hard."

7/29/13

7/29/13

"I didn't film one second because my tamagotchi died."

7/28/13

7/28/13

"I'm not a hero, I'm just a hunter. Heroes are supposed to be role models."

7/27/13

7/27/13

"I'd love to do that, be able to touch the sky, in a matter of speaking that is."

7/26/13

7/26/13

"Today will be my productive day. ... Okay, tomorrow will be my productive day."

7/25/13

7/25/13

"Guys, look at me real serious like, and act like we're making this brilliant strategy, then do whatever the hell you want."

7/24/13

7/24/13

"You're acting like an entitled asshole. ... Who me? ... No the cat. Yes, you!"

7/23/13

7/23/13

"I see dinosaur is the popular phrase."

7/22/13

7/22/13

"I looked at myself in the mirror and realized; I'm going to be in college in two years and I feel like I'm nine. ... So you ran in the mud? ... Yes. ... You know you're sixteen, right? You're not supposed to be having midlife crises yet."

I didn't film one second because a band of rebels stormed my neighborhood and held me hostage.

7/21/13

7/21/13

"I didn't film one second because because a mutant vampire sucked all of my blood out."

7/20/13

7/20/13

"It's a fear of beauty, or so I'm told."

7/19/13

7/19/13

I'm going to start using a random excuse generator. 

"I didn't film one second because my dog ate ME. No. Really. And my computer too!"

 Apparently that adorable ball of fun is capable of consuming an entire human. Seems legit.

7/18/13

7/18/13

"I need to feel it out again. ... I'll say."

7/15/13 - 7/17/13

7/15/13 - 7/17/13

It's not that I forget, I guess. it's more that I'm lazy.

7/14/13

7/14/13

"I'd like to slap her and tell her she owes me half a year of your life back. It wasn't just you who felt the blow. For a while, I forgot you knew how to smile like that at all."

7/13/13

7/13/13

"I'm not too sure I've learned the back stroke yet."

7/12/13

7/12/13

"The oddities begin to fade after a while, the novelty of them, I mean."

7/11/13

7/11/13

"Youth is just half the game, and here I feel old."

7/10/13

7/10/13

"Carnivals are kind of bitter sweet aren't they? They are so much fun, and then they're gone. Just like that."

7/9/13

7/9/13

 "It's been a year to the day since you've died, and I swear not a moment goes by when I don't wish you were here."

 

7/8/13

7/8/13

"It's like you've waded into the deep end at your own pace, then threw the rest of us in with no warning and expected us to know how to swim."

7/7/13

7/7/13

"You said 'our imperfect perfection,' well, you got one part right."

7/6/13

7/6/13

"It's all just talk and show until someone actually delivers."

7/5/13

7/5/13

"So easily we masquerade as the exact thing we're not."

7/4/13

7/4/13

"I feel like it's giving me attitude."

Happy Independence Day!

7/3/13

7/3/13

"What was that? ... Yes, yes, I know. Cone of shame."

7/2/13

7/2/13

"I always say, we can stop this whenever people lose interest, we haven't stopped yet."

7/1/13

7/1/13

"It's Tuesday right? Yes? Okay. Good. Wait. It's Monday. I give up."

6/30/13

6/30/13

"Joe used Flail; it was super effective."

6/29/13

6/29/13

"Look me in the eyes so I know you know I'm everything you need me to be."

6/28/13

6/28/13

"We'll be that city on a hill, burning brightly."

6/27/13

6/27/13

"He is mighty to save."

6/26/13

6/26/13

"Right wing nut? ... Eh? Yeah!"

6/25/13

6/25/13

"People passing by, looking for angels."

6/24/13

6/24/13

"Kiss the boys goodbye."

6/23/13

6/23/13

"Then I shall die as one of them!"

6/22/13

6/22/13

"Chest hair has never looked so appetizing."

6/21/13

6/21/13

"Godspeed, my lonely Angel."

6/20/13

6/20/13

"Trouble in paradise?"

6/19/13

6/19/13

"Let's see how far we've come."

6/18/13

6/18/13

"How do you pick up the threads of an old life?"

6/17/13

6/17/13

It's a monday. Do forgive me.

6/16/13

6/16/13

"Fearless ... What happened to that? ... The world happened, I grew up."

6/15/13

6/15/13

"Annihilation Jim, total, complete, absolute annihilation."

6/14/13

6/14/13

"The world's too big, Mom."

6/13/13

6/13/13

"I have this habit of forgetting I'm human and require sustenance... also I haven't eaten since this morning, and that was only a cup of yogurt."

 

Check out the finished product!!!!

6/12/13

6/12/13

"I don't really deserve these points, so I'm just going to draw a giraffe and see If he gives me points for the effort anyway."

6/11/13

6/11/13

"I'm not wearing this and none of this is actually happening."

6/10/13

6/10/13

"Having all the answers means you've just been asking boring questions."

6/9/13

6/9/13

"Waking up is nice, for those first few moments, before you remember who and what you are."

6/8/13

6/8/13

"I regret this choice now..."

6/7/13

6/7/13

"If I cut my hair real short and dyed it blue, what would you do? ... I'd return you on the basis of faulty programming."

6/6/13

6/6/13

"Trouble, you're fat, and ugly, and nobody likes you."

6/5/13

6/5/13

"I hate my friends, in an existentially ambiguous kind of way."

6/4/13

6/4/13

"You got new glasses? ... Yeah, wanna see? ... They are EXACTLY the same as the old ones."

6/3/13

6/3/13

"Tears stream down your face when you lose something you cannot replace."

6/2/13

6/2/13

"Don't you ever apologize for that, we are family. And family helps one another"

6/1/13

6/1/13

"Joe, I think I might fall over. Seriously my knees are weak right now."

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extra photos from Comic Con

 Our group cosplaying from Firefly

Adam Baldwin aka Jayne from Firefly

Our stuff, including the signed photo

5/31/13

5/31/13

"So what does that make us? ... Big damn heroes, sir."

5/30/13

5/30/13

"Passion - to love what you do."

5/28-29/13

5/28-29/13

I forgot!

5/27/13

5/27/13

"Now do it blindfolded."

5/26/13

5/26/13

"I'll remember that, for when you're forty."

5/25/13

5/25/13

"You gave up everything you had to find me, and you found me broken."

5/24/13

5/24/13

"Is that all you've got, a cheap trick and a cheesy one-liner? ... Sweetheart, that could be the name of my autobiography!"

 

5/23/13

5/23/13

"And here we are at night, like always, searching for something to make the day worth ending."

5/22/13

5/22/13

"I swear, anything above 70 degrees is like hell to fence in."

5/21/13

5/21/13

"I sort of like doing absolutely nothing all day, I think it suits me."

5/20/13

5/20/13

"On second thought, let's not go to Camelot, tis a silly place."

5/19/13

5/19/13

"I'd love to make a list of all the silly things my iPod autocorrects gibberish into."

5/18/13

5/18/13

"Run, clever boy. And remember."

5/17/13

5/17/13

"I am not sure that qualifies."

5/16/13

5/16/13

"They say it's always darkest before the dawn, but I've seen the dawn, and I've seen the darkness that comes in it's wake."

on a brighter note, pardon the unintentional pun, the AP exam is over and done with, now that's not to say I'm still not anxious about my score, but at least the exam itself is done.

5/15/13

5/15/13

"I've got strength of the soul, no one's going to bend or break me."

5/14/13

5/14/13

"I like to take off my glasses sometimes and just stare at the world. It's weird, because I know I can't see far off, so it's all blurry, but it feels like home in this absurd sort of way. When I have my glasses on everything's too solid, too sharp, too real. And sometimes, I just need a little less real."

5/13/13

5/13/13

"How was work? ... If I told you, I'd have to kill you."

5/12/13

5/12/13

"Thank God for mothers."

5/11/13

5/11/13

"I can honestly say, you don't look a day over fifty... but tomorrow, I can't."

5/8/13

5/8/13

"The first word is 'I' ... Wow, that's boring ... I know."

5/6-7 and 9-1/13

5/6-7 and 9-10/13

So I've forgotten four days, May 6 and 7, and May 9 and 10. 

But I have video for May 8, 11, and 12!!

5/5/13

5/5/13

"Been scared and battered, my hopes the wind done scattered."

5/4/13

5/4/13

"May the fourth be with you."

5/3/13

5/3/13

"It's a cut and style."

5/2/13

5/2/13

"Look. Outside. There's an ambulance in our driveway. ... Oh, shit."

5/1/13

5/1/13

"Kate, I can't breathe."